More awareness, less fear

The more aware and observant we become; the more we sense our feelings in our bodies, rather than our minds; the more curious we become about what’s actually happening, as opposed to reacting automatically according to our default patterns and fears — the more at ease we become. The more room we create. The more time we have to listen before we respond. We can look to see, what’s good here? What’s a way in which I can be helpful?

When we look to see what’s really going on, we learn so much!

Lately I have been feeling some low-level anxiety. I suddenly begin to feel a bit anxious, as if I have a test tomorrow I’ve forgotten to study for, or the other shoe’s about to drop, or I’ve neglected a work deadline. The feeling is one of rising panic. But I know to hit “pause.” I wonder, what’s going on? I listen carefully for a few moments, quietly, with curiosity and an open heart, and find… nothing. Instead, as I sit a bit and breathe, I find a peaceful feeling. I find that I am fine.

Eventually I developed a theory about this anxiety. I’ve been taking heavy-duty medication for an antibiotic-resistant lung infection, and I never take medication. My theory is that my body is shocked and stressed by this sudden onslaught of unknown molecules!. I asked my doctor and she agreed that this was an excellent theory. My wise friend Kathie Swift advised me to greet the medication with gratitude, knowing that it may be stressful, but it’s here to help heal me! This, too.

Meet life with curiosity and wonder.

My religion is nature. That’s what arouses those feelings of wonder and mysticism and gratitude in me.
– Oliver Sacks

Human beings must always be on the watch for the coming of wonders.
– E.B. White

If we are mindful and observant of the world within and without, we have such fodder for wonder!

We have the choice: distract ourselves, or know ourselves and our world. Internally, it’s quite interesting to gently explore how we are feeling. Externally, we can delight in the last roses of fall blooming, smell their deep fragrance, feel their silky petals, drink in their delicate color. Feel the cool air on our faces. Feel the cold air! Note how cozy we are in our beds in the morning, as the sun coaxes us forth.

My dears, savor this precious lifetime!

Be free.